Woke up this morning, this particular statement was so strong in my heart. This has been like a reality mode, more like the summary of my life. It's been months of rollercoaster, between finding myself, becoming better and still struggling with growth. I couldn't believe what i have been through but then i believe there is a reason for everything that has happened and that's likely to happen.
Our mother gave birth to us, nurtured us, father trying to provide, siblings billing and always want to crack jokes. But nobody knows what we are becoming. Nobody understands your silence, they don't really know why you are laughing out loud, nobody knows the battles you fighting silently. Everybody just assume you are really okay and you are the child they give birth to without understanding you.
Maybe now, i understand that life isn't always straightforward, maybe life isn't a movie that always have an end, maybe somethings are just meant to keep happening or may be stop 😢 💔.
So this is the reality i accept; That Life doesn’t always move in a straight line. Sometimes, it runs in parallel.
Parallel lives are the versions of us that exist side by side, the one we show the world and the one we quietly live within. It’s the student who laughs with friends but battles silent pressure at night. The lover who gives their all, yet still carries fear in their heart. The dreamer who speaks big visions but wrestles with doubt in private.
We wake up each day walking multiple paths at once that nobody can see or know. One path is the responsibility that has to do with school, work, expectations. Another is desire about what we truly want, what we wish life could be. And somewhere in between is reality, where we try to balance both without losing ourselves. Unfortunately most of us cant and we end making a drastic decision that might end up destroying us and for those who can, I give kudos 🫡
Living in parallel can feel exhausting. It’s like carrying two worlds in one body. You’re healing and hurting at the same time. Moving forward but still holding onto the past. Smiling outwardly while processing things inwardly. And somehow, you keep going.
Regardless of the parallel Life, there is beauty in it too. Because parallel living means growth is happening, it mean you are trying to be better even when it’s not obvious. It means you are evolving, learning, unlearning, and becoming. The version of you that struggles today is walking alongside the version that will be stronger tomorrow. So you don't have to give up and don't have to necessarily force the straight line. Give it time for each dot to connect. One day, those parallel lines begin to meet. The confusion sometimes aligns with clarity. The pain softens into wisdom.
The person you are and the person you’re becoming start to feel like one. Don't neglect your yourself, just keep evolving until then, it’s okay to exist in both spaces. To not have everything figured out. To be a work in progress. To be slow at times, to be behind a times, to not have a smooth relationship or love life, for your family not to understand you, to be broke sometimes. To not have the As. For that business or relationship to crash. Just know a time will come when the lines will connect.
Life in parallel is not a sign of being lost. It’s a sign that you’re on your way.
You are a work in progress. Whoever wants to stay will meet you there.
It gets better with God 💪🙏🙇
Such is Life!